I’m scared to fall in love again.

I’m terrified of free falling into the red abyss of vulnerability and acceptance.

The thought of allowing you in while I’m still trying to see through my cracked heart

hurts prematurely

maybe it will never hurt

but the phantom-like waves of drowning

wash over me

as my body starts free falling into the middle of the ocean.

Now in the middle

seconds from the end wondering if you were telling me lies or

If you were actually the truth

and were made to be my guard

not lifeguard

but rather the guardian of my heart.

Will you swim out to the middle of our ocean and watch me as I take my final breath?

Will you swim out and grab my hand before I sink because you promised to never let go?

Please tell me which it is because the suspense will kill me.

The waters cold

don’t take too long

I never learned how to swim.

Gabriela A Tejada

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