Her Personality

Borderline. 

The edge that she stands on

peaking over each day

looking over the edge of reality,

insanity, stability,

on the line.

Every morning battling with

being pushed off or brought back

from the end of the road.

A constant battle

 “Do I jump, do I let go?”

or

“Do I fight against the waves of confusion and disillusions of myself?”

Overmedicated on false hope,

false illusions, painful words, and past memories.

Instability bordered by the walls of her ever-changing views

on the actuality of the façade put on by everyone around her.

Borderline.

Aren’t we always on the edge?

Aren’t we always borderline?

Personality.

Ideologies of personalities.

Most of the time dictated by societies

need to control every aspect of the being.

What makes her she,

doesn’t make you he,

but rather us unique to each other.

The back and forth of the confusion of who she is.

One moment she’s consumed

by unrealistic thought of herself,

dictated by the imbalance in her brain.

The slideshow of unrealistic bodies,

needs that the world requires,

Moods that are constantly changing,

dictating your views of her.

Oblivious to her needs to succeed,

for acceptance, for your needs.

She’s trying.

Personalities she doesn’t know of;

Personalities she hasn’t met yet.

Her personality(S)

Disorder.

A state of confusion.

Misunderstood by most,

placed onto many,

Stigmatized by the world.

The distress of the brain waves abilities

to receive even the minimalist of a compliment.

Absurd ways in which she understands the word “beautiful”

The impulsive need to be alone,

to explore every inch of humanity’s 

ability to accept that she is not okay,

but she is trying.

Pushing aside, and ostracized by this “disorder”

placed on her by a Ph.D. clad persona,

that knows nothing more about her,

the stranger that stares back at her

every morning from her bathroom mirror.

Her, but not her.

Disorder.

Gabriela A Tejada

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All Images were taken by me unless stated otherwise.

I removed this poem from my site a few years ago, but thought it needed to be brought back!

8 Comments Add yours

  1. Josh Glover says:

    A very thought provoking piece, powerful words and full of feeling, thanks for sharing!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. TheAstronomicalPoet says:

      Thank you 🌙

      Like

  2. ignited says:

    Wonderful that you shared and hopefully help others 💫

    Liked by 1 person

    1. TheAstronomicalPoet says:

      Thank you for the Kind words🌙

      Liked by 1 person

  3. Amazing!!!💛💛💛

    Liked by 1 person

    1. TheAstronomicalPoet says:

      Thank you! 🌙

      Like

  4. Pennize Pics says:

    Hi, I love the poem and it hits home for me because I do struggle with Borderline Personality Disorder. Great work, thanks for sharing.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. TheAstronomicalPoet says:

      Thank you, I’m glad you enjoyed it! 🌙

      Like

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